Looking back at this teaching and studying year, it seems like a lot has happened. A lot of doings. A lot of events.
Buddhism via a few courses
In Memory – appreciating the lives of those who perished
Touring around Israel – inspecting the sites of the stories of the Bible
A School Twinning Course
Memory taught with examples from movies
Learning to Learn
Finding Happiness and Fulfillment
So many courses
I learned a lot
I listened to Mindfulness Summits.
I wrote poetry
I submitted to magazines
I taught mindfulness to grade 8 students
I led meditation sessions on my kibbutz
I led students in a new digital project and learned a new online platform
I narrated a film and then another.
And by simply being
I became a grandmother and discovered that life takes on a new super tingle just by that one switch of circumstance.
I began to wonder if I really want to continue my life as it is. Do I want to really live here? Do I want to change my daily activities? What makes me feel good? How much do I want to interact with others and if I could choose, which others?
Do I want to work with those older than me?
Do I want to write? And what do I want to write?
Is it time for me to reconsider living far away and devoting my time to painting, being, meditating
Or perhaps a retreat once a year is enough
I reflect on what brings the most smiles to my face. The moments fly into focus: when I taught puppetry. Helping kids create their puppets from their own designs. Helping them prepare a stage. Offering them my time and more time when they seriously wanted to work on their play.
Smiles when I met brilliant pupils who were open with me and shared themselves. Smiles when I worked on art projects and spoke eye-to-eye with young people.
Many such meetings and much good feeling was derived. These special moments of heart meeting heart are what make my life. As always. I remember from a very young age, the vibration of these precious moments when pretense is stripped away and a glimpse of understanding is shared.
Reflection on how to maximize such moments brings me into further deliberation.
As I pause on this 18th day of June.