I’m not sure when it started but one day my transparency went from everyone in the world being able to read my emotions to no one in the world reading them right.
Perhaps it started when I let the flow of my thoughts pick up uber-speed and the velocity of changing ideas charging past this galaxy would leave no discernible roadmap for interpretation.
Perhaps it began when my thoughts zoomed in the opposite direction of most other people’s thoughts thereby leaving no possible chance for accuracy. How can you guess what someone’s thinking if you, yourself, have never thought a similar thing?
A psychologist is only as good as her/his own experience. A teacher cannot deal with ADHD in a student if s/he has no personal touchstone with which to deal with that student.
In short, being misunderstood has become rather more commonplace than I’d have wished.
So, what’s the problem? The problem lies in the fact that being misunderstood throws a lot of the onus on me to correct the false assumption. It requires me to fully admit to what I’m thinking and then find a simple way to explain it to someone who thinks they already know what I’m thinking. Even saying all that sounds complicated to me. But to actually undertake to do it, is quite a load.
Do I really want to reveal my thoughts? Especially when they’re in process and having to explain or backtrack will take me away from my pondering?
Do I want to adapt a ‘mask’ whereby nothing I’m thinking is apparent to the outside world? Especially when most of the outside world isn’t really dealing with anything other than its immediate needs and wants.
So, as I consider the most recent cases of being ‘misunderstood’, I’m wondering. Do I really care? Is it the same kind of youthful ‘no one understands me’ melodrama?
Is being understood worthwhile, when, in fact, one’s thoughts continue to change and flow and one moment’s ‘understanding’ is no longer applicable the very next moment. Being understood is either a constant process, or perhaps better, only truly important when I truly want to be understood (which appears to be less frequently!)
What do you think?